doa'

berdoalah sesungguhnya Allah itu maha mendengar.

your little girl

because tho im growing by the day, i will always be your little manja girl
i will never be shy to hold your hands in public,
i will forever need you to sit next to me on rollercoasters.
and your arm will always be my punching bag <3

since december

hey remember the first time we met?
let's recall each little memory...
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bukit jelutong

haha you know how i always brag about bukit jelutong? lol yea. i'll always be like ohh bukit jelutong, durr tempat cool tu. haha well, truth is, it is muahaha. so here's a day at bukit jelutong spent with naiqee :)

 " if you don't solat that means you are arrogant. you are arrogant to the one who created you "

Ramadhan Kareem

insyaAllah, may this year be better than the past. i still remember last year, where i had to balance out ibadah with my studies and tuition. gosh it wasnt easy, with trials coming up pulak tu. this year, im going to be fully commited, insyaAllah. let's make this month worth it. Amin, selamat beribadah.

      Three years ago back at this time, when syahid used to feed me with fat food. He'll buy me choc cake, roti john, caramel pudding, .... boy i miss being spoiled by you :(

little details

here are the little details ive missed out since i havent been writing for quite some time. tudung, yeap. i dont want to go on and brag about this whole thing but im slowly starting to wear it. people say tunggu hidayah datang lah apalah but really, its all about muhasabah diri. there's no such thing as ready or tak ready. at times, you gotta force yourself to do something, for the better. insyaAllah.
then comes my braces, hehe yeap. took it off awhile ago. feels so awkwardly awkward with this retainers and ive got to keep it on for 6 months, blergh. anyways, i went for worldstage the other day! haha like last minute thing, biebs! woo hahaha. some random thursday night, ayah ajak me watch spiderman. yes, just me and him. not that i mind, its just a bit weird. bahaha but cute lah, father-daughter bonding time kan? and here's to a guy i never expected would stay in my life. most of them just walk away, am i right. so its true what they say, expect the unexpected because you boy, is something i have never ever expected.

18 on the 18th

thanks loved ones for spending this special day with me :D

perfect lunch

with perfect people.
location ; pakli & serai

the day things went bad

He didn't seem angry. He seemed...empty. I walked up the stairs and down the hallway, past my sister's empty room. In the safety of my own bedroom. My long-length hair was tangled, smell of ciggs, and eyeliner was smudged under my eyes. i smelled of sweat and fear. Looking in the mirror telling myself, 'well, maybe it could have been worse.'

When i woke up the next day it was nearly noon. Climbing out from under the blanket, i threw on a pair of jeans and a top. Then i cautiously opened her door. Silence. Pure silence.

STARTING FRESH.

leaving all the past behind, so long. goodbye.
starting a new chapter. a change. a challenge.