PAIN

this time, the pain stings.

was what we had nothing to you ?
you're being so indenial.
telling people you had no feelings towards me,
saying i'm the one who's to blame
for putting my hopes up too high.
hey come on, i wouldn't be dumb enough
to actually out my hopes up high if it wasn't
you giving those damn bloody hopes.
yes your words maybe don't show them,
but you actions were clear enough.
i have no idea how easy you can get,
to actually go back to the girl who brought
so much pain to you in those 3 years.
i had to watch you suffer, i was there for you.
so what was i? just an entertaiment?
all this while just to wait for your ex to come back?
what was all those 47 times we went out?
nothing to you? was i your pure enjoyment?
i really just don't understand.
and now you're shutting me off just like that.
by blocking me on every social network. wow.
how childish can you ever get?
what happened to so called
"being afraid of loosing our friendship"?
yeap, that was all bullshit. all crap.
the thought of what you did hurts,
brings in so much hatred to you.
trusted you well enough. believed you were different.
funny. funny how you think you can let go of all this.
i believe karma will do it's job.
well have fun with your dream girl.
may you both have all the happiness in the world.
i believe in God, and Allah will have His ways.

SEM 2 RESOLUTIONS

well resolutions are things you keep in mind and you try your best to achieve them. so here are a few things i have in mind. first of all is of course is to focus on my studies more. to actually listen in class for my exam-based subjects. Learn to manage time and not procastinate. haa itu paling penting. do redo's and not whine about it. to keep wearing baju kurungs to class (but try my best not to be selekeh since i am most of the time lol). Learn to be more independent since now all my close friends are seperated and are in different groups. Most definately is to refrain myself from eating and loose weight!! Find a jogging partner perhaps. And lastly is to reduce myself from coming home often. and also to detach. goodluck for sem 2 naimi! may god bless your soul.

cuti sudah habis bro

 

 

well here's the last week of holidays for me, sad enough hey? making the most out of it. well here's a short summary of my hols. started off at it's best because my somebody picked me up at the train station and brought me out for early dins. ive basically been going out well hehe almost everyday (since we all know i tak reti duduk diam dekat rumah). met back my besties, reunion with the highschool peeps, lunch & breakfast dates with just almost everyone who had time for me. nothing feels better than to catch up with your homies. i threw a surprise birthday party for le bestie naimi aqeela, and i swear it was the best. also worked as a kindergarten teacher hee just to get some cash. totally broke i tell you. i guess semua mall i dah bantai. setia city mall, mid valley, klcc, sunway, ou, curve, hahaha yeap. also had short roadtrips with cousin and sister to kuala pilah, port dickson & nilai with friends. fun it was! had some drama for a week, where my ego just didnt want to drop. but the fact that you called and we talked it through and stuff, yea things got better. sorry for my wrongs. at that point, i was lost. the many times i went to gold chilli just to satisfy my cravings. hehe sushi too! and also the best nasi lemak in town! went to johor for a wedding (i dont normally tag along). started being friends with a new person, and we gossip like almost everyday! also another drama where this dude started cruhing on me, and my bestfriend at the same time. like what even. he has a girlf. pfft. celebrated sister's 21st birthday and got her matching studded sweatshirt. hehehe. got into an accident in kl. went out with the lav of ma life. everything seemed perfect, everything seeemed right. had my bestfriends sleepover countlessly. hanged out with my cousin alot since he's on holiday too. our bond got tighter and im actually so happy about it. did a teeny weeny bit of shopping with le mother. now let's enjoy the few days i have left. syukur for all this happiness.

I, your willing victim.

POINTER

results sucked badly i just dont want to talk about it.
but hey, syukur takde fail.
new sem, new resolutions.

because letting go is the right thing to do.
may february give me strength.
good month ahead everybody.