today marks the day that I am submission-free. Alhamdulillah, I can now at least have the much needed sleep I deserve. "Architecture will never let you rest even after all work has been done. Nothing seems to end in this field. Tiring but fun I must say." welli can only rest for a few days, I have finals coming up soon. yikes!

my highlight of the month!

bunkface's gig with the uitm clan

determination

IM SORRY FOR MY PAST DEPRESSING POSTS. IM FINALLY STEPPING OUT OF THE BLACKHOLE. I AM FINALLY MOVING ON. LETTING THIS PAIN LINGER WONT CHANGE A THING. IVE GIVEN TIME FOR THE WOUNDS TO HEAL AND IM STARTING OUT FRESH. BISMILLAH FOR A NEW START. NO MORE EMOTIONAL NAIMI!

demotivation

i used to be that girl who could always motivate myself each time i breakdown. now that girl is lost, and she has lost her total confidence. any good advice to boost me up ?

PAIN

this time, the pain stings.

was what we had nothing to you ?
you're being so indenial.
telling people you had no feelings towards me,
saying i'm the one who's to blame
for putting my hopes up too high.
hey come on, i wouldn't be dumb enough
to actually out my hopes up high if it wasn't
you giving those damn bloody hopes.
yes your words maybe don't show them,
but you actions were clear enough.
i have no idea how easy you can get,
to actually go back to the girl who brought
so much pain to you in those 3 years.
i had to watch you suffer, i was there for you.
so what was i? just an entertaiment?
all this while just to wait for your ex to come back?
what was all those 47 times we went out?
nothing to you? was i your pure enjoyment?
i really just don't understand.
and now you're shutting me off just like that.
by blocking me on every social network. wow.
how childish can you ever get?
what happened to so called
"being afraid of loosing our friendship"?
yeap, that was all bullshit. all crap.
the thought of what you did hurts,
brings in so much hatred to you.
trusted you well enough. believed you were different.
funny. funny how you think you can let go of all this.
i believe karma will do it's job.
well have fun with your dream girl.
may you both have all the happiness in the world.
i believe in God, and Allah will have His ways.

SEM 2 RESOLUTIONS

well resolutions are things you keep in mind and you try your best to achieve them. so here are a few things i have in mind. first of all is of course is to focus on my studies more. to actually listen in class for my exam-based subjects. Learn to manage time and not procastinate. haa itu paling penting. do redo's and not whine about it. to keep wearing baju kurungs to class (but try my best not to be selekeh since i am most of the time lol). Learn to be more independent since now all my close friends are seperated and are in different groups. Most definately is to refrain myself from eating and loose weight!! Find a jogging partner perhaps. And lastly is to reduce myself from coming home often. and also to detach. goodluck for sem 2 naimi! may god bless your soul.